Having a dinner

I told You about my day,
On how it feels tough but full of blessings
I told You that my life is a joke
And You just laughed when you hear it

I keep on going and told You about my mom and dad
I know You’re already aware of everything but I still tell You things anyway
Because I know by telling You, makes me feel better
at least for a moment.

I told You about how it gets hard
to sleep without anyone on my side
without nightmares
without anyone telling me everything’s gonna be alright
without anyone telling me that I’m not alone
and I can make it through for another nightmares

I told You about how it gets hard
Not to smoke
not to skip any meals
not to loathe

I told You about how
I am missing someone that I’ve never actually even met before
How it felt so odd and right at the same time.

I told You about the people in my life,
my friends,
The one who stays, the one who leaves
The one who keeps me alive
The one who cares so much
The one who dreamed
I ask you to make that happen
You just smiled,
telling me that it’s Your time.

And You finally told me the time is over.
We have to finished this dinner.
But, still
I wished that I was still having a dinner with You.
I haven’t told You so many things,
Even when You already know what I’m going to tell you.

(Jul, 24th, 2019)